Anticipation Laced with Dread
Mar. 26th, 2011 04:18 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dragonheartNormally by now I am giddy with excitement for the next new episode of NCIS. I really do count down to Tuesday evenings - it's like my week doesn't really start until then (yeah, I know, I need to get a life).
I went shopping with friends this morning and had this itchy feeling of unease that I just couldn't place - nothing is amiss in my life: Marriage? good. Relationship with my son? good. Work? good. Family and friends? good. All is good - so I was really perplexed at this low level but still noticable tickle of unease. As I wandered the malls looking at stuff I didn't want to buy, I was finally able to pinpoint the turn in my mood - because I actually woke up feeling pretty good.
My friends and I were discussing last night's NCAA basketball game: University of Kentucky vs Ohio State University. My friend said in passing "Your alma mater beat DiNozzo's alma mater" and bam - that's when my mood turned - I started thinking of NCIS, so why do I have an uneasy feeling concerning my favorite show?
I think I have been feeling anticipation laced with dread since about the middle of the season, but it has been manifesting much stronger since the last two episodes.
I am not liking what is going on. The subtle character assassinations are starting to get to me - I never know who or what to expect from one week to the next from any of my beloved team. It's like I don't even know them anymore. One week someone is living in weirdo land and the next week they are back to normal. Last week it was Ducky and his creepy nursery rhymes over the dead body - what happened to respectful medical examiner Ducky? He was macabre to say the least. He does deal in death on a daily basis, but normally his stories lean more to the lighthearted side of life. It left me feeling uneasy and kinda worried for Ducky. And that's not the only thing that bothered me about last week's episode.
And it seems like everyweek I am coming away with a "WTF was that?" moment (or two).
I don't know, maybe my mid life hormones are getting to me - forty is hell ladies - just wait until you get there - you will see what I mean - or maybe my obsessive personality has latched on too hard and I need to divest my attentions - H50 is looking like a good option.
Whatever my weird deal is - I am excited for and dreading next Tuesday all at the same time and I can't even put into words what 8.20 is doing to my anxiety level.
I think I need a nap
I went shopping with friends this morning and had this itchy feeling of unease that I just couldn't place - nothing is amiss in my life: Marriage? good. Relationship with my son? good. Work? good. Family and friends? good. All is good - so I was really perplexed at this low level but still noticable tickle of unease. As I wandered the malls looking at stuff I didn't want to buy, I was finally able to pinpoint the turn in my mood - because I actually woke up feeling pretty good.
My friends and I were discussing last night's NCAA basketball game: University of Kentucky vs Ohio State University. My friend said in passing "Your alma mater beat DiNozzo's alma mater" and bam - that's when my mood turned - I started thinking of NCIS, so why do I have an uneasy feeling concerning my favorite show?
I think I have been feeling anticipation laced with dread since about the middle of the season, but it has been manifesting much stronger since the last two episodes.
I am not liking what is going on. The subtle character assassinations are starting to get to me - I never know who or what to expect from one week to the next from any of my beloved team. It's like I don't even know them anymore. One week someone is living in weirdo land and the next week they are back to normal. Last week it was Ducky and his creepy nursery rhymes over the dead body - what happened to respectful medical examiner Ducky? He was macabre to say the least. He does deal in death on a daily basis, but normally his stories lean more to the lighthearted side of life. It left me feeling uneasy and kinda worried for Ducky. And that's not the only thing that bothered me about last week's episode.
And it seems like everyweek I am coming away with a "WTF was that?" moment (or two).
I don't know, maybe my mid life hormones are getting to me - forty is hell ladies - just wait until you get there - you will see what I mean - or maybe my obsessive personality has latched on too hard and I need to divest my attentions - H50 is looking like a good option.
Whatever my weird deal is - I am excited for and dreading next Tuesday all at the same time and I can't even put into words what 8.20 is doing to my anxiety level.
I think I need a nap
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Date: 2011-03-27 07:33 am (UTC)Either it passes, when an awesome episode comes along or you find a shinny new fandom (Hawaii 5-0)
Character assassinations have been going on since S6. Everyone but Ducky has been badly written.
Rewatching S3 (my NCIS happy place) usually gets me out of an NCIS funk.
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Date: 2011-03-27 04:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-27 07:09 pm (UTC)